What do you call this part of the shirt?

in the stories im writing, i wanted to write a scene wherein the guy will slide his hand from the girl's cheeks down to the neck then into that part of the shirt to caress her waiting breasts but i cant write that scene because i dont know what its called in tagalog nor in english. what i do is make the guy slide his hand up the shirt, thru the "laylayan" and into the luscious breasts.

i've asked anyone that care to listen but they dont know it, too. i wanted to ask ex_groupie since she's a lifestyle writer and she knows a lot about those sorts of things but she doesnt want to talk to me anymore. i could try and ask her but baka ma-pak yu ulit ako... eeeppp!

Game 1 (salamat san mig lite)

One time, I was with this really pretty girl i had a huge crush on for the longest time and we were gonna hang-out in our house, kwentuhan over bottles of San Mig Lite, just the two of us. We were in the TV room. My folks were alright with that because they know who the girl was (a classmate in high-school) and her family is a friend of our family. They’re probably thinking that since we haven’t seen each other for a long time, we were just catching up on things. But what my parents didn’t know was prior to that, we were seeing each other for about two weeks already and we even had a kissing session one time, a session wherein I accidentally cut my lower lip on her braces.

Past midnight, three bottles of San Mig each and lots of stories later, the girl and I were making out on the sofa-cushion-covered floor. We were kissing deeply, wet kisses and tongue on tongue. My heart was pumping hot blood all over my body, warming me up, all the way to my swollen dick. In my mind, that would just be another kissing session but my libido consumed my better judgment and I wanna do some other things. So, with trembling hand, I cupped a breast. She didn’t resist. I couldn’t believe what was happening. There I was making out with this girl no one would think I’d be able to do what I was doing that time. I even had her breast in my hand. Man, oh man!

Hormones finally consumed us both, as minutes later, I was rubbing my middle finger against the fabric of her jeans, feeling her warm pussy thru her pants. She, in turn, slid her hand inside my shorts and was giving me one hell (or heaven) of a hand job as our lips continue to lock and kiss hungrily. I tried to slide my hand inside her jeans but it was hard to reach inside. I mustered enough courage (as I fear she might get angry) and unbuttoned her jeans. She let me. As I pulled her jeans off her legs and tried to look at her amidst the darkness of the room, she pulled me on top of her. I eased myself between her spread-up legs, kissed her as I rub my hard-on on her warm and moist panty-covered pussy. I pulled up her blouse, exposing her milky-soft breast. With clumsy hands, I pulled-down her bra caps and the second I saw her taut nipple, I sucked it inside my mouth, licked it as I hear her soft moans. As I grind my hips on her while licking her nipples, I heard her whisper “what do you want? What do you want?” I know what I want and told her.

I couldn’t believe what she did next. She pulled off her undies and then pulled my shorts off as far as she can reach, which was around the middle of my thigh. As I try to convince myself that this is not one of my daydreams, I pulled my shorts down to my knees, my hard dick went harder as he was freed from his tight hiding place and now wants to go inside again to a tighter wonderful place, which was a few inches away. As I kissed her neck, nibble on her earlobes, I felt the tip of my dick on her wet, hot opening. I slowly slide myself inside her for the first time. My head wanted to explode, the room is spinning. It was so surreal. I couldn’t believe what was happening. A few moments later, I was deep inside her. We both let out a soft moan as I reached her deepest crevice. I kissed her on the lips sweetly as I felt her hands on my lower waist as if telling me to move, to slide my dick in and out of her.

My lower body started to move back and forth, in and out of her wet pussy. We’re both starting to moan softly, we cant do it loud lest we got caught with our pants literally down.

THE CRUSH : uhmmmm… unghhhh…

ME : uhhh… ahhhh… ummmm… I’m cumming… shit! I’m cumming... uhhhhh…

I exploded deep inside her. I was falling back down on earth with every spurt of my cum. I laid on top of her, breathing heavily.

THE CRUSH : ha-ha-ha anong nangyari sa yo?

ME : ewan ko, di ko na napigil. Sorry… sorry…

THE CRUSH : ha-ha sabi ko na nga ba e, “[name withheld] wag masyadong umasa. Don’t expect too much” he-he-he

She kept on teasing me about it as she hugged me while im on top of her. What about my ego? Okay lang, totoo naman yung sinasabi niya e hehe I told her I came prematurely because I couldn’t believe that im actually doing it with her. Later, as we were cuddling and talking, I felt another surge of libido as my dick started to grow hard with the sensation of her butt on my groin area. She felt it, reached for it and held my hard dick in her hand. We kissed again, I caressed her breasts and played with her nipples. My dick was throbbing in her hand as I motioned to her that I wanna go inside her again. She bent a little in order for me to enter her from behind. As the tip of my dick felt her soft and moist pussy lips, the hardness suddenly disappear with the fear that I might cum prematurely again. That doesn’t escaped her attention as she felt my dick go limp.

THE CRUSH : Ay ayoko na, wala na e… ayoko na, tulog na lang tayo…

Damn, damn, damn… She hugged me tight and laid on my arms as she dozed her frustrations away.

SCORE : me - 1 = the crush – 0 (watch out for game 2)

adult content

in my shallow attempt to make my site look and feel professional and sophisticated (re: kagalang-galang), i thought a "Google Ads" in my page will do the trick. I signed up, waited for a few days till my application is approved, and all those times, i was already imagining the "oohhs" and "ahhhs" of readers as they see Google Ads on my page.

Today, i read Google's response to my application. It read (see the picture too):

Thank you for your interest in Google AdSense. Unfortunately, after
reviewing your application, we're unable to accept you into Google
AdSense at this time.

We did not approve your application for the reasons listed below.

Issues:

- Adult content

HWAT! PAKSHET! and here i was thinking that my page isn't "adult enough" these past weeks because of my recents posts which are a bit mushy for my taste but that i have to write them. Well anyway, i guess that was a sign, a signal for me to start writing confessions again.

Next post : how i struggled against premature ejaculation...

sorry...

i missed you na kasi...

suddenly, all songs you hear reminds you of her. even the generic love songs. and why do all radio stations seems to be playing your songs?

suddenly, everytime your cellphone rings, you excitedly look who it was calling you or sending you an SMS, then a heavy sigh as you deleted that SMS from Globe. You hold on to your cellphone, wishing that the next SMS is from her.

suddenly, time moves oh so slow. every tick of a second seems to last two, three seconds longer. you suddenly have nothing to do, dont want to do anything else.

suddenly, you even envy her officemates who get to see her everyday, spending eight hours with her everyday. and here you are, you cant do anything to see her, even for a short time, time enough for a kiss and a hug and a "how have you been? i miss you na..." worse, you start to envy herself for being with herself all the time. buti pa siya, titingin lang sa mirror, makikita na niya ang mukha nya, makakasilay na.

suddenly, even the street lights remind you of her, the times when you're walking her home. dreading those places that will signal that you're near their home, meaning you have to part ways na as you kiss her goodnight.

its hard missing someone so much, yet you cant do anthing about it. you miss her so much you start writing mushy crap like this... sigh.

wala e. mimiss ko na kasi.

isang araw

a day in the life, in no particular order.

I was using my computer at home early in the morning, checking porn este-- was checking CNN on line pala for the latest breaking news when suddenly, my PC went kapoof! Everything went black. I switched it back on, the CPU was humming but all I see on the monitor was this message “signal cable disconnected”. The damned thing won’t turn on again. I guess I’m the only one turned on that morning ha-ha I then decided to head for work. At the office, I inserted my flash disk memory where my stories are stored but the PC can’t detect the disk. The USB port is working fine, so that means my memory disk is broken. Damn, all of my stories are there. Later in the day, I was writing my porn este-- was writing a project quotation pala when suddenly, the PC went kapoof! What the fuck in the name of Bill Gates is happening here?!!! It won’t turn back on again, a message on the monitor said a system file is corrupted. Much later, on my way home, I was listening to my MP3 player when suddenly, only one side of the headset is working. So there I was, listening to Soapdish in one ear and to the kukurokuro radio station of the FX in the other ear. Hey, “Malas” is my middle name.

I fell asleep in the office for a few minutes, at about 5 in the afternoon, in front of my boss, with my mouth half-open. Swerte, no drool.

I found two packs of flavored-condoms in my office drawer, while looking for the Windows XP CD. I forgot those condoms were there, or to whom did I use the other missing one, as it was a 3-pack box. Malabo namang I masturbated with a condom on ha-ha (or did i? hmmmm…)

There was a cutie girl sitting prim and proper in front of me. She’s in an office attire, a blazer and mini skirt. Her soft curly hair neatly pony tailed, exposing her flawless neck even Lestat won’t dare bite. I would catch her taking a glimpse of me (or was it she catching me taking a glimpse of her? But of course, I would like to believe it’s the latter he-he) She’s a real cutie, I told myself, as I act cool and pa-cute. Then, I noticed there was a 2-cm moth just below her sans-stockings-knee. Or was it a moth? I stared at it. It is a moth. No, it can’t be a moth. As I looked up, she caught me looking at her knees and gave me this “ay ang manyakis naman niya”-look, for staring at her legs. Bwiset, malas naman. Di pa naman ako namboboso e, yet.

In a busy intersection with lots of vehicles, it’s hard to cross the street. What to do? I followed a pretty kolehiyala in a nursing uniform, letting her cross first. Drivers slow down and let pretty kolehiyalas cross. I found out about this phenomenon a long time ago. Now, if a guy will cross first, for sure, he will almost get sideswiped by a passing vehicle with a “put*@#!namo, tanga!” from the driver to boot.

And lastly, magaganda talaga ang mga taga Pasig, specially around 6 to 7 in the evening.

Noli Me Tangere is not judge me not

seeing me in person, you wouldn’t think I’m capable of doing those perverse things you might think I’m capable of doing, whatever they may be.

But I might be.

On the other side of the equation, you might be surprised to find out that I’m not who you assume I am, again, whatever that may be.

People who know me personally and as the confession guy have said that we (me and the confession guy) are two entirely different entities. That one wouldn’t think that I’m the one who’s writing all those stuff. That the confession guy is way cooler than the actual me. That I’m like a school boy compared to the confession guy. But when pressed, they all admit that they like me better than the confession guy hehehe (or did they just say that because I’m holding a scissor in one hand?)

I have two points I wanna stress here. One, I’m God’s gift to women *rolls eyes*. And two, you really can’t judge a person by the way he looks and even if you think you know him, the truth is, you can never really tell.

Earlier today, I was in my people-watching mode as I let the world pass me by. I was thinking who among these people walking by are keeping a secret life like me? Who among those three kolehiyalas moan out the loudest? (Probably the one in pony tail because… because… I dunno. Maybe I just wish she’s a moaner pero eh ano naman if she is? As if that information will help me in any way). How about that manong, to whose picture of an actress does he masturbates to? “Virgin pa kaya siya?” me, looking at a girl handing out leaflets, not that I have some ulterior motive or what, I’m just curios ha. Does that security guard have someone waiting for him at home after his shift? Who among these people walking fast can’t wait to get to a toilet? Paano kaya siya magpaligaya ng sarili? Sino kaya ang tinetext niya? Kapatid ko kaya yun? I wonder how that middle-aged lady looks like when she’s in a doggie. Who among these people have a sick child at home? Who among these people just had sex? Who has a hard on that very minute? Who is wet between her thighs?

I remembered the other day, while my cousin and I are killing time in this coffee shop, there enters a girl I... uhmmm… had a one-night-stand with early last year. Yeah, I know, but that was the first and only time I ever did that and only because the girl practically begged me, to the point that she said it’s her treat when I gave her my alibi that I have no money that time. Call me mayabang or what, but that’s the truth. I bet no one in that coffee shop will assume I had sex with that girl. I mean it is possible for me and the girl to “get it on”, but no one will think that we actually did get it on. As a side note, I didn’t even acknowledge the girl when she enters and sat near our table. Why? Uhmmm… let just say because I felt used after the deed and I felt shy/ashamed. Yeah, you LOL there, I was used. After the act, I never heard from her again. Maybe she didn’t enjoy it? I don’t think so because I know she did. She said it and her body reactions confirmed it. She didn’t like my looks? My personality? Ewan ko lang. But I know for a fact that she didn’t like it when I said that I have a girlfriend na.

Bottom line, we can never really judge a person. We’re all incapable of judging the others. Only the person’s Creator can tell who or what kind of a person he is. Don’t believe in that saying “tell me who your friends are and baka friends ko din sila…”

lucky pao

Sometimes, when you least expect it, an otherwise ordinary, routine chore may turn out to be a moment that will make your day. Like when you’re organizing your cabinet and finding a long lost love letter from your first love.  And oh, just your luck for being a good girl, you even found a forgotten picture of both of you during your happy times. And you just can’t help it when tears start to drop down your cheeks as you remembered that time when the picture was taken, you two were happy then, you have your whole lives to live together full of love and joy… and love… and joy…

*insert screeching sound here* but that’s for the hopeless romantics. For a horny dog like it, it’s a different scenario.

It’s a lazy Saturday, about 2 o’clock in the afternoon. I was retrieving my laundry from the second floor window of my room.

Nothing unusual.

Then there it was. From the other side of this tall wall separating us from our neighbor, a nymphet appears, walking out from the side door of their house (I can see her from the second floor of our house). Oh, what a lovely sight. I didn’t even know we have a next door neighbor that pretty and (excuse me for the term) yummy. She obviously just woke up from an afternoon siesta, perhaps, and was giving drinking water to her puppy.

And as I stood there beside our window looking at her, my jaws dropped to the floor, I realized something amiss as i repeatedly say “ WHOA!!! What the fuck?!! That’s not right!!! What is wrong with this picture?!!!” (three exclamation points for emphasis) Why that reaction? Because I realized that the girl’s boobies are showing from the loose blouse she was wearing (see illustration). Yup! You read that right. Her milky-white breasts are exposed and so does her two very pink nipples. And sabi nga, I was at the right place at the right time for that very enjoyable spectacle. Sabi din, all good things must pass, for the girl went inside after giving water to her puppy, leaving me with mouth wide open and a hard on.

Tama ba naman yun? Lumabas ng bahay na kita ang dalawang boobs? Oh well, I must’ve done something really good in my past life to deserve that blood-warming moment *wide grin*

So there. Anyway, if you need me, you can find me sitting beside my window. Have I told you that that’s my favorite hobby these days, innocently sitting beside windows? You should try it sometime.